I finally summoned up the courage to resign from my job. The whole process from clicking the button to my last working day (next week)? Two weeks. It’s a big decision not just because I’ve quit a job (that’s like doing away with last season’s clothing in Indian IT) but because I have, for the time being, decided I’m done with “Big IT” which constantly makes me go:
Even before I went on a break I had a certain scenario in my mind which would be the litmus test triggering a resignation. Given the combination of role and office politics, my job would have been sort of like this:
But I still hesitated to resign. I felt like I was overreacting or being childish or even unprofessional/unethical for resigning so soon after coming back. All sort of true and so I felt like this:
When I broke the news to a friend he replied, “Brilliant! What took you so long?” I’d written in my mail that I was not sure what emoticon best expresses what I’m feeling right now. He said, this is what I’m looking for:
Remember the litmus test post and the comments on it? It helped more than you guys can imagine. It was reassuring to know that once in a while, a small incident can tip a major decision and that’s ok. So thank you! Your comments helped me feel less afraid of a bigger decision I was making.
I had what you can call a decent IT job – nothing spectacular but not too shabby either. I was leading a team, learning in bits and pieces, participating in office politics and not doing too badly for myself, I liked my manager, I could see a way up (though not a very quick one). Why couldn’t I just adjust with the things that were pulling me down?
But I couldn’t. And the emoticon sender above (let’s call him Vito in case he reappears on the blog anytime soon) basically said, “You are in a position where you can take a risk and search for what you want. Just do it. Take a pay-cut, check out the options, then make a decision. Just don’t get into a rebound”.
And so, I’m repeating to myself:
All said, I’m now looking for an arranged marriage not a rebound fling. Who better to arrange it than those who know me best? And so lovely readers, you who know me so well, what do you think I should do?