This Is Exactly How I Feel
August 31st, 2009 Posted in Personal Updates, World Famous on Simbly Bored (or simply personal favourites)
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A Cup of Coffee
August 29th, 2009 Posted in Randomness, Ramblings, and Ideas, World Famous on Simbly Bored (or simply personal favourites)
Some of the best conversations I have seem to happen over a cup of coffee. My favourite place in Hyderabad was, for a long time, the Barista in Jubilee Hills. I have no clue what’s happened to the place now. I wonder if it’s still the twenty-something hangout that it used to be when I was around.
There’s something exceptionally relaxing about hanging out with friends, drinking coffee (preferably cold), eating the carrot-corn salad, WW strumming the guitar with one of the two (always a backup, eh WW?) picks he carried in his wallet and me humming along, without a care for the people who stopped to stare…
As life moved on, I got busier, tied up with wedding shopping, absurd notions of “Mom would hate it” and essentially moved into a fiancé (and later husband) centric universe. The cup of coffee was long forgotten. Friends were caught over SMS or IM or email but there was rarely enough time to linger over a cup of coffee anymore.
All conversation was hurried and to the point. Who had the time to ramble on about places, people, dreams and such? There was a reality to be lived and a future to be planned. All randomness and speculation was shelved. All
Now that I think about it, I haven’t had a cup of coffee that wasn’t served in a disposable cup since I’ve been here in the US. Coffee always seems to be to go. Never to stay. There is always something to do. Something to be planned, something to be picked up or dropped off, or written or put away or bought or sold or said or documented or acted upon. There hardly seems to be a moment when I can sit down with a good coffee and a great book or friend. There is a home, there are possessions, there are responsibilities, uncertainties… There are plans, there are actions.
There are misunderstandings, loss of temper. There are disagreements, recriminations, justifications, reconciliations.
There are road trips, journeys and moves.
There’s Facebook and IM and email and the odd phone call or two.
But there are no coversations.
No cups of coffee.
And no friends.
I’ve Been Thinking
August 27th, 2009 Posted in Personal Updates
I’ve been thinking about a lot of different things. I’ve been thinking in generalities, about the way of the world, the ways of people and the popularity of Asterix comix. I’ve been thinking specifics about my life, my ideas for the future, my plans and my uncertainities. Yet, there has been no coherence to my thoughts. And my indecision has finally taken over my life. Leaving me with open ended thoughts, questions, dreams that don’t seem to end and ideas that never seem to firm up.
I’ve been thinking about jobs. What I want to do and where I want to be in the next few years. And I’ve been thinking about what I would like my career to look like in a few years. And also been wondering if The Great Recession will allow me to find one in the first place.
I’ve been thinking about myself. What’s important to me, what’s not, what I really want to do, spending more time with myself, my thoughts and my quirks. And I’ve been trying to learn to be nice to myself and give myself some credit for what I’ve accomplished so far.
I’ve been thinking about my friends. All of the people I love who have been around, been there for me, in my insane moods, shared my foulest moments, lived with the constant drama and just generally been great friends…
I’ve been spending setting up our first home together since we were married last year. I’ve been looking at all the junk we’ve accumulated (him over the last five years, me over the last one), been sorting through clothes, giving some away to Goodwill, moving boxes, packing, unpacking, repacking and arranging. Cooking, cleaning, discovering that I will probably never be a stay-home wife by choice.
I’ve been thinking about what it means to be Hindu. I’ve been spending some time thinking about the Unity, the Trinity, about why we worship the same God in different pieces… I’ve been thinking about what Hinduism really means to me and been amused by the inconsistancies in the stories we read.
I’ve been thinking about people. In general.
I’ve suspended thinking and watched the weirdest Bollywood and old Telugu movies imaginable. And also a bit of Yes, Minister and other random stuff. Also the Star Wars prequels on TV (terrible, just terrible).
I’ve also been thinking about my blog. And why I’ve been so erratic about posting. About moving to my own domain. And random stuff.
But really, I’ve just been thinking…
